Could I Be...by Terrance W. Hinton

 

Could I be the one I need

Instead of needing the one to be

To those who find no reason

To be the one indeed

 

Could I be the answer

To the questions I may ask

Or should I be dismayed

By my own malicious past

 

Could I be the darkness

That awaits my every move

Or should I replace the darkness

With the Light that shows and proves

 

Could I be the concept

That fuels my dreams to be

Or should I let to dreams be dreams

And only exist in reality

 

Could I be the disturbance

The blocks the flow of thought

Or should I be the hero

That saves the mind from naught

 

Could I be the instigator

Of my own confusion

The blocks the very message

That says, “it’s an illusion”

 

Could I be the mistake

That aligns with regret

Or should I be the answer

That requires much respect

 

Could I be the guardian

The protects the dream

To hold ground against the opposers

For good they bring no means

 

Could I be the beginning

With no end in site

Of an everlasting ponder

Come day come night

 

Could I be...

 

GreenLight 🚥🚦🚥

*GREENLIGHT: the act of women sending sexual-nonverbal messages towards a man whom she desires to be intimate with.

I was having a conversation with a young lady coworker, recently, and it was very interesting and enlightening, to say the least. 

The conversation started as a typical discussion about former coworker that had posted some questionable things on social media. 

You know the type, "I DUNNO WHY SHE POSTED (this and that)!"... "HOPE IT DOESN'T INTERFERE WITH HER NEW JOB!"...type of dialogue. Eventually, the conversation shifted from the former coworker as the subject matter, into the social relationship between Men and Women. 

Now before I continue, I must give a name of my co-conversationalist in order to move forward in this particular story. 

Let's call her "Tiff".

So, here we are, Tiff and having a conversation in which has shifted into a Man is this and a Woman does that...then we went into a matter about Women with children and the social aspects of the two as far as dealing with Men. Then, I asked her a question...

ME: "I was told by a couple of women that whenever there's a child(ren) involved, the father is,  automatically, available for sex...is that true...?" 

Tiff: "Yeah, that's about right...!"

ME: "No matter what he is doing. No matter who he is with. No where he is or going....the baby's father is not exempt from the child(ren)'s mother's sexual partner...?"

Tiff: "Yup, doesn't matter."

ME: "So, okay, on any given day...when the child(ren)'s father comes over to pick up the child(ren), or have a conversation about the child's endeavors, activities, mental status, school or whatever, the mother would, could and will give the father lots of negativity, embarrassment, and/or attitude...for maybe, no particular reason at times...making him feel less than himself and sometimes, in front of the child(ren)..."

Tiff: "Unfortunately, it goes like that, sometimes..."

ME: "Okay then turn around, on the next day or the next time the father comes over...she decides to give him the (GREENLIGHT) just because she can...?"

Tiff: "But, it's up to him to follow through or not...!"

ME: "So, if he doesn't follow through, for whatever reason...there's a problem, right?"

Tiff: "Yup, that's right!"

ME: "But...it's the mother who is setting up the situation...why would it be a problem if he doesn't follow through...at all...?"

Tiff: "Because she wants what she wants when she wants it...!"

ME: "But isn't that some kind of entrapment that could, possibly, lead to another baby...?"

Tiff: "I guess you can call it entrapment but, it is what it is. The baby part is possible. "

ME: " This is crazy! This is insane!"

Tiff: "Yeah, it seem like Men can't catch a break."

ME: "Not even to scratch his own itch...!"

So, there you have it, fellas...!

If you ever wonder about your relationship with your child(ren)'s mother and why she is being difficult at times, this is just one of the many reasons why...so just beware when she gives you the GREENLIGHT!

Peace ✌🏿

What About Us...Really?

Sometimes, I wonder what would happen if there all or most of the Men in the entire world, suddenly vanished...? What would all of the Women of the world do knowing that there are, literally no Men in the world of any type, color, physique, height, shape...nothing, not one human male species available at all! 

What would Women do?

For decades, Women have been saying to us, Men...:

• "WE DON'T NEED YOU, EXCEPT TO MAKE BABIES!", 
• "ANYTHING THAT MEN CAN DO, WOMEN CAN DO BUT BETTER!",
• "THE ON;Y THING THAT MEN ARE GOOD FOR IS TO MAKE BABIES!",
• "ONLY A WOMA N KNOWS WHAT A WOMAN NEEDS TO SATISFY INTIMATELY!",

So, my question still remains...what would they do? 

God made Man and Woman to be equal in any type of relationship but the Man is the head, not the Boss over the Woman. BUT...the Woman is not Boss over the Man either. Both of them were given different gifts and responsibilities to help one another and to support one another. And that is only the tip of the iceberg! 

I dunno...we Humans, seem to always twist up everything that God has ordained and even told us what WILL happen if we disobeyed! He had it all set up! All we had to do is just follow directions, do our individually appointed jobs, eat all of ther fruit from the trees(except 1 particular tree!), live free and naked, and be happy...BUT NOOO! We had to do the one thing that God specifically commanded us not to do because some of some snake wanted to tell us the very opposite of what God said and actually told  what will happen when we do. But we all know the outcome of that story, right!?

If anyone can find out the answer to my question, that would be great! Do whatever analysis, data, hypothetical situational theory, or whatever any of the scholars can come up with. 

But I know one thing though...this would be a boring world, at best.

THERE ARE A FEW THINGS ON MY MIND...

Today, on the 20th of January, I got home from work early because I was being laid off for about a week. As I came in to get settled for the afternoon, I decided to use the opportunity to talk to Joe about his job search. Of course, it started off as me talking to him in a normal mono toned voice and, of course, he flared up as if I was coming down on him or putting him down. 

There are times, in a young man's life where he is trying to figure out what he is going to do with his life and it doesn't help when someone in a position of authority to question his efforts or initiative on his ponderings...

Anyways, Joe flared up! 

I continued to talk to him and tell him how much I admire his intellect and smarts. I reminded him that he is a bright young man that have yet to discover his full potential within himself...for himself. He continued to be rejective and solidifying his "wall of protection" against what I was saying to him. I felt myself getting frustrated but I kept my cool and stayed within my zone. After a few moments of exchanging words to get Joe to see where I am coming from but at the same time, understanding where he is coming from as well, I stopped talking to study my lesson for the evening bible study that is scheduled later that evening...When I was done with the studying, I really emphasized how much he has going for him..."there's a whole world out there" I said, "just waiting for you to take it on!" 

I, personally. would love to be able to witness this young and strong black man take on the world by its throat and twist! 

Then, I will know that he would be alright!

Be-YOU-tiful in your own way!

It's Been Awhile...It's 2021-October!

"Most people that have started with you will not likely to end up with you...!"

I have heard this statement only a few times but for some reason, it stuck with me. I am at a point in my life that I am really ready to be happy. I mean happy in everything that I am into, outo, onto, and off-to! After years of working to make money just to get ahead, I realized that's all I was doing...getting ahead, but only to end up falling behind many times over. Now I finally get it! I've read blogs, watched videos, studied articles about being happy; meditated, prayed, learning more about myself thru the Scriptures, and really strengthening my bond with the Almighty!

I finally get it!

On the flipside though, I wished that I got it sooner in my life, then I could have established a more solidified foundation for myself. Whether it be financially, physically, mentally, psychologically, whatever, BUT...now I get it!

It's weird that that things that I know now, I know them NOW! But now, I don't even have to means to even establish what I know "NOW"! So, what now...? Well, so far, within the past year of COVID 19(we are still in a pandemic!), I decided to start my own biz...Imagine That! I decided to put my doodling skills to work and even upgrade my abilities of doodling and drawing into Canvas Art (that's the passion part), but my biz is Graphic Art and Design. I have always to go on polishing my graphics to be something that someone will be willing to buy. As I learn more about graphics, video editing, photo editing, and everything in between...I realized that I like doing this...! To be about to change the dynamics of a photo, or editing a video by adding effects and music and altering the colors...this is exciting to me and I thank the Almighty for giving me the gifts and talents. I would not be me if I didn't get gifted with these types of gifts.

All Praises to the Almighty God!!

I said all of that to say this...not everybody will see nor believe the vision that God has gifted you with. They will only pull you back, put you down, or give you a bunch of hell about what you have benn gifted and privileged to take on.

"THE VISION IS YOURS AND YOURS ALONE!"

BUT...every now and then, God allows you to meet people that has dreams of their own and to be able to exchange ideas and visions with people that may be dealing with the same type of trifling people that seem to have not open themdelves up to their vision and gifts. Well, that's their problem! >

But don't let your issues bring down my dreams...DreamKilla!>

Welp, that's all I have...gotta go and turn in!